A deep area of anguish for me in leaving Christianity (as I’d been taught it) was losing the promise of “life everlasting” – that is, life in heaven after death. I’ve hesitated to share the following entry from my journal because it is so intensely personal, moreso even than what I’ve shared thus far. But the time for cowardice is not today. So, for now, for whomever it serves, here’s…
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Where is Hope? (1-4)
The question I wrote about here, “Where is hope?” came into stark relief later, when two family members whom I dearly love ended their struggles with debilitating illnesses (Parkinson’s disease and glioblastoma multiforme a/k/a brain cancer). More on that later. For now, keep in mind I was using “atheist” because, early in my journey, I did not see that there was any alternative between “Bible-believing Christian” and “Atheist.” The responses people are sending me from this blog have opened new doors in that regard. THANK YOU. Week 1, Day 4 “I have a question for you,” Charlie says. We’re standing in our bedroom. “Shoot.” “Let’s assume you’re right about all this. That this,” he sweeps his arms to include the room and the world outside the bank of windows, “is all there is.” “Okay.” “Where’s the hope?” I am dumbfounded. “It’s here. Are you kidding me? It’s…
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Bible Contradictions and Christianity (2-1)
This is from Week 2, Day 1 of my Questioning Faith journal. Several people have asked me for specific biblical contradictions that made me question Christianity. This post contained a couple of specific bible issues, so I’m sharing it – NOT to debate, only to illuminate some specifics of my journey. Week 2, Day 1 Week 2 of my “conscious uncoupling” from Christianity. Can there be a conscious uncoupling from a nonexistent entity? That feels a little too philosophical for morning writing on little caffeine. Charlie and I had a date night Saturday night. Nearly our entire dinner conversation centered around my de-conversion. Every time we talk about it, I become…
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Unfriending In Freedom (1-2)
This post from my Questioning Faith journal on Week 1, Day 2 contains some foul language. Early in my journey, there was a lot of freedom in writing these kinds of words on the screen. It felt like a release to use words that were right for what I was trying to communicate. Please also remember that I was writing under the notion that there is no alternative for “Bible-Believing…
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Wearing a Mask – And Not Liking It (2-4a)
Wearing a mask is something I wrestled with from the very beginning of my questioning journey because I was known as a believer. My real life friends. My colleagues. Social media followers. Heck, I’d gone on national media many times and taught thousands at Christian conferences coast to coast – leaving millions to know that one descriptor about me: believer. I lost countless nights of sleep, laboring under the worry…
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